does it mean goodbye?

post ini hanyalah berupa curhatan sampah yang ga penting. kalo mau baca ya silahkan. kalo ngga ya gausah. :) gue bikin ini buat dia. buat lo sih tepatnya. gue mau bilang ke elonya langsung tapi ga bisa. jadi curhat diblog aja ah. hehe. gue tau ko lo suka baca blog gue. kan elo pernah bilang sama gue, hehe. gaktau deh lo masih inget pernah ngomong kaya gitu ato ngga. x)

lo kenapa berubah si? jujur gue sedih banget liat lo berubah jadi kaya gini. kaya sekarang. kemana elo yg dulu? lo yang anaknya blakblakan kalo cerita sama gue. lo yang ga pernah ngehindar dari rengkuhan tangan gue. lo yang selalu jujur sama gue. lo yang ga nyimpen banyak rahasia kaya sekarang. gue kangen sama lo. sama lo yang dulu.

Sejujurnya kadang aku pun tak mengerti
Peran apa yang kita jalani
Seindahnya dunia ini takkan seindah
Bila ku milikimu dan ku milikmu..

what are we? i mean, what we are? friends? bestfriends? i dont even know. what i know is, friends doesnt fall for each which i do most of times. friends doesnt care with an over protection which i always do. friends are not like that! so what we are? dont you know that am sick of these? hh

We were stars up in the sunlit sky
No one else could see
Neither of us ever thought to ask why
It wasn't meant to be
Maybe we were way too high
To ever understand
Maybe we were victims of all the foolish plans
We began to devide

lo tau apa rasanya kalo lo kehilangan orang yang lo sayang? sakit banget.. mungkin lo ngga tau karena lo belom pernah ngerasain. tapi gue? udah pernah! dan cukup sekali buat gue untuk kehilangan orang yang gue sayang. gue gak mau kehilangan elo juga. YOU'RE CRUCIAL FOR ME.

maybe you thought that am a jerk. chasing that person's shadows but in one side i always wait for you, my friend. yeah? how jerk am i? yes am a jerk. A JERK WHO LOVES YOU ABOVE ALL. A JERK WHO WANTS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING..

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do i get better
Once I've had the best

mungkin lo pernah pikir kalo gue tuh posesif banget. gue emang kaya gitu. itu juga karena satu hal, GUE CARE SAMA ELO.. gue cuma takut kalo lo kenapa kenapa. gak tau kenapa gue bisa kaya gitu. mungkin karena gue terlalu sayang sama lo.

and now, could you please explain me why you always try to escape from me? could you explain why you didn't like to have a call from me anymore? could you explain why you're being like this? could you explain why, why you always try to didn't have an eye contact with me? could you explain all?

Percayalah kasih
Cinta tak harus memiliki
Walau kau coba lupakan aku
Tapi ku kan slalu ada untukmu

i believe this isn't a goodbyes from you. cause what i know is you're afraid if am gone later. cause what i know when we didn't met for 4 days or more you used to miss me. cause what i know is you used like to put your head on my shoulders. cause what i know is you used to care of me.

you're still my friend. even more.

This ain't goodbye
It's not where our story ends
But I know you can't be mine
Just like the way you've always been

just like what do people said. when you're expecting something too high you might hurt when you fall later.

as real as it seems, you're only in my dreams..

please don't change who you used to be. i miss us just like what we used to be. ♥


- titanium.