teddy bears? stars? orange lollipop? or whateva!!

i ever know someone. who loves orange lollipop, who likes teddy bears, who hates insects, who's afraid of butterflies. haha. who is she? she's my ex friends. my ex sista or whateva you called that. she's seems to go far away. and now i realize how i really missed her. :'(

she would never know how much i miss her
she would never know how much i get lost of her
she would never know how much i feel so alone
cause of what? SHE EVEN WOULDN'T CARE!!

dear you, dont you.....
remember that nite i ask you bout that teddy bears?
remember that nite i ask you to see the stars up in the sky?
remember that day you told me that you like orange lollipop?
remember that day you told me that you hate butterflies?
remember that time i ask you to watch movie?
remember that time we chat until late nite?

And now I'm thinking about
How I wish I could go back
Just for one more day
One more day with you

i really miss you
i miss everything about you
i miss your hair scent
i miss your smell
i miss your smile
i miss your voice
i miss your laugh
i miss your stare
i miss your look
i miss your face
i miss your desperate expression
i miss your everything!!!!!

hey! dont you remember i ever told you about the summer triangle? you're the vega one. and you ever ask me to become your altair? remember that, girl? hope so. :( altair, who will keep vega always, who will protect vega from anything, who will hold vega forever..

so, its useless then i already save my money to buy her huge teddy bear for the b'day present. to ask her go someplace to celebrate it. its so useless... :(

but i'll never regret. thanks to God for letting me know that you ever existed. thanks to God for ever letting me have you as my besties. thanks.. but i think now the time is over. we're not getting the same anymore. its the time to let you go.

its over. here. now.

so now let me close the book that you and me ever write about a lil bit of life. let me close the book... dont ever blocked my way again like you always do.

yes. this is goodbyes. thanks for the memories. :) hope you'll never regret it too as the way as i am.

now --> deleting all bout you, erasing you, forget about you.

AND YES, NOW I REALIZE, ALL I WROTE ABOVE ARE ALL LIES!!!! I CANT EVEN GET YOU OFF MY MINDS! YOU STUCK HERE! HHHH. this is the most stupid things i ever did. goddamit!

hope you will regret everything and we will be the same just like we used to.. :(

P.S : this nite the stars look so bright. let see beyond our imagination with all connection we can make.. :)

- titanium